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Sunday, July 19, 2009, 5:37 AM
i'm trapped by low self-esteem. I couldnt seem to bring myself out to play again.i put in effort and tried to do well for my english descriptive but it turned out to be bad. i was excited at first when my teacher gave out the paper. i thought i did my best and i will score at least a 20 when mr ng even said good effort. but when i peeped at my marks, it wasnt at all desirable. i only scored a 16 out of 30, one of the lowest in class. i felt like breaking down at that time but kept telling myself to stay strong, i must not cry. netball. i wasnt at all surprised that i'm not in for kl trip though. i knew i'm not up to the standard. Likewise, everytime when i tried to work hard for sth, my efforts always turned out to be in vain. Ever since i started training with 14s, i begin to doubt my ability. Am i really fit to be in the squad. i'm not improving nor growing taller whereas others are improving dramatically. i'm just a bench player. i'm disappointed with myself. i dont deserve the romp medal atall. i did not contributed much ytd. I Know that i'm not significant to the team and they didnt need me to be out there during their crucial period of time. i really want to experience playing with all of you and to experience the glory and the great sense of achievement while receiving the champion medal. but i'm simply not qualified to play with all of you. i back out automatically everytime during the most important quarter cause i knew i will just affect the team's play. i'm dumb. i'm lousy. what else can i do? |
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Hello! I'm Toh Shao Xuan from CHIJ St Nicholas Girls'. I'm in Netball and I'm born on 4th April! :D Tag
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