Shao Xuan

2009-11-25T19:12:00.000-08:00

so yeah, ytd was the sports day cum moving out ceremony.

it was kind of boring and stuff and i thought the school kind of lost its usual gusto at the beginning of the day. hahaahah!

we started off with our usual family dance, no doubt it was hilarious having dionne as your partner. seriously, she creates her own dance steps and hand movements! hahahahaha

i will miss her childishness:P,liveliness, laughter and everything when she leaves the school man! hahahahaah

jiayou SURVIVOR IN YOUR FUTURE ENDEAVOURS! and i will definitely miss your oinkletotosis!

After the sports day, we had our moving out ceremony mass and then proceeded to the holding site at toa payoh.

was touring around the school with jaq when we heard lion or idk who shouting or screaming as if they saw a wraith in broad daylight and beatrice was saying," baby dionosaurs!"

crazy! hahahahahahah! and in the end i think it was monitor lizard.

although the school is big but not very desirable huh. lol

and im hoping against hope that we do not have to run 8 rounds around that 600m out of shape track with monitor lizard watching you while you run. hahaahha

As the netball lines are not drawn out yet, we are currently using the indoor court at CCAB and which means we do not have to train under the sun! hahaahha:D:D:D:D

oh thanks limin for the booksssssssssssssssssss tooo!:D

2009-11-20T23:56:00.000-08:00

friday

woke up at 6 30am ytd and thought it was still early so took my time to bathe and do my stuff.

little did i know that i would be late! so grabbed my towel and bottle and dashed out of the house at around 7 15.

managed to meet shirlene at montfort bus stop on time, but apparently i had forgotten to bring the bids and the ball. fortunately, there was extra.

gathered at the forum and travelled to mgs.

we were told to run 5rounds around the 300m track before the game, and ya as usual, i complained it was tiring and stuff. hahahahahaahah and i was having my cramps k!

but worthwhile afterall, cause we won! :D

31 to 27. good game everyone!

was told to play GA for 3 quarters and GD for 1.

had troubles accustoming to the position, but yaaa i just thought of maybe giving it a try?

turned out quite badly? hahahahahaha

overall, i think the game was alright, there was bad and good patches here and there but a great experience indeed, for everyone.

:D:D:D:D

2009-11-16T18:20:00.000-08:00

i'm glad everything is over. :D:D

just hope that everything would be great next year, no worries, no tears.

our school will be having numerous friendly matches with schools like mgs, clementi town, sjc and more.

i'm a little nervous to play with mgs, but like what most people always say just let nature take its course and be the best you can be on court.

There's nothing for me to worry now, i'm glad i'm back playing with all my teammates and friends.

ALL THE WAY SNNB!

2009-09-11T09:01:00.000-07:00

i may not be skillful but i must be diligent.

2009-08-31T05:35:00.000-07:00

i had enough.
i'm tired and sick of this rat race. i want to escape to somewhere where no one would be able to hunt for me. Somewhere far from reality, from the earth and the competitive world.

i need a break.

i had enough of the critism, insults and disparagements. Having a desk partner getting 24/30 for math test and saying that her mom would smack her if she had gotten a 23.( obviously, after absorbing the fact that i scored a 23 for my math).

This isnt all.
i even have classmates critisizing and mentioning and comparing my psle score with my partner. Apparently, just by the fact that i scored lower than someone or should i say the lowest in class, she never ever approved on my idea. ( should be thinking that i'm dumb and my ideas are simply not worth considering).

Coming to netball,
its driving me crazy and mad at the same time.

having ***** who would reprimand you in front of your face for not running infront to ask for the ball.
having ------- who doesnt even give a damn about you, thinking how lousy you are and you shouldnt even be selected.
having ****** who dread partnering with you and being in the team as you.
Having ****** begging other teammates to transfer to their school and what about me? ha, just being left aside, never consider asking me to transfer to their school.

I Know i often lose out in my speed,stamina and a great netball mind.
i know i'm vertically challenged.
i know i'm ugly, awful and stupid.

but please i just wish for something, could you respect me? At least respect me as your friend.

2009-08-28T07:37:00.000-07:00

Its an ordeal that i have to overcome.
A tough one.

2009-08-13T06:10:00.000-07:00

No matter how much efforts i tried to put in, no one will appreciate it.
no one.
i know i'm dumb, i know i;m stupid, i know my ideas are not worth considering, i know i have the lowest psle score in the class but can you at least spare a thought for me?
its really nice, and heartwarming that at least when ------ said that my ideas were feasible unlike you who always seem to side with her and never EVER agrees with my idea.

i deeply regreted promoting to higher mother tongue. Its a mistake.

2009-08-09T02:17:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA okay uhm this is for your to start smiling and stop being so pessimistive and emo and negative!!! You're just beside me now muahahhahhaa and i guess you dont even have a single idewa what im doing now right? double muahahahaha. okay whatever. im so happy i studied geog finish already^^ Pleasse cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer up, stop saying youre lousy and whatsoever. You're like wayyyyyyy taller than me, no doubt! Hope you'll really2 become more positive and please think that you are better, not lousier ok. Hmmm, i dont know how to use your laptop, as im a noob. Bye2 shaoxuan!! let's go shopping one day if you want huh! ;) Happy National Day and I love you!!!!!

alex ;D

2009-08-08T06:16:00.000-07:00

'COME ON! WAKE UP ITS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD!'
thanks ms rose, for that 3SECS of compliment yersterday.
its the first time the 14s coach every complimented me.
i had never felt the SAME feeling like ytd before. Although its just a mere 3 secs compliment but i really enjoyed it.
Doubt anyone knew the reason why i kept staying at the first third ytd.
it was because i didnt want ms rose to put me in the shooting circle and i am quite sure that i will distract the flow of the game and if i cant put in the shot, everyone has to push up+ star jump. Also, i stayed in the first third all the time as i'm afraid that i will do some unforced mistake and everyone had to be punished again.
Everyone has its own strong ability, but i don't , i realised.
i'm dun have a flair in anything or in anywhere.
shini,she has high elevation.
rochelle, quick feet.
amelia, quick dodges.
monessha, fast sprints.
ainsley, the fear she gave to any of opponent is thoroughly intimidating.
me? what about me?
slowest quick feet. the one who always kick the cones away.
slow sprint. lousy stamina.
often clash into players. inconsistent shooting.
someone people is afraid of passing the ball to, in case they lose ball.

ms rose "your reaction is too slow."
" i need to change some player maybe shaoxuan you would like to join the other team?"
i'm like a ball being pass around, like reserve who is always the bench warmer and no one would like to do passes with me or be in my group.

2009-07-19T05:37:00.001-07:00

i'm trapped by low self-esteem. I couldnt seem to bring myself out to play again.
i put in effort and tried to do well for my english descriptive but it turned out to be bad.
i was excited at first when my teacher gave out the paper. i thought i did my best and i will score at least a 20 when mr ng even said good effort. but when i peeped at my marks, it wasnt at all desirable. i only scored a 16 out of 30, one of the lowest in class.
i felt like breaking down at that time but kept telling myself to stay strong, i must not cry.

netball. i wasnt at all surprised that i'm not in for kl trip though. i knew i'm not up to the standard. Likewise, everytime when i tried to work hard for sth, my efforts always turned out to be in vain. Ever since i started training with 14s, i begin to doubt my ability. Am i really fit to be in the squad. i'm not improving nor growing taller whereas others are improving dramatically. i'm just a bench player.

i'm disappointed with myself. i dont deserve the romp medal atall. i did not contributed much ytd. I Know that i'm not significant to the team and they didnt need me to be out there during their crucial period of time. i really want to experience playing with all of you and to experience the glory and the great sense of achievement while receiving the champion medal. but i'm simply not qualified to play with all of you. i back out automatically everytime during the most important quarter cause i knew i will just affect the team's play.

i'm dumb. i'm lousy. what else can i do?

netball

2009-07-10T04:54:00.000-07:00

im starting to doubt if my sports is really netball.
Am i of a kind who prefers to work as a team or individual?
Do i actually have a talent in netball?
i am greatly disheartened by my performance on thurs and couldnt concentrade the next morning.
i was fuddled by the lack of sleep as i was burning midnight oil the day before.
As a result, i interpreted the question wrongly and i would just have to prepare myself for the worst.
After the trials ytd i was starting to ask myself is it worth it to go down to sss to train twice a week till late in the evening?
Is it worthwhile to go down every evening to support the u14s team?
Is it worth it to travel all the way to woodlands just to train for 3hrs and get myself so lerthargic that i cant even concentrade on my work?
My grades are dropping dramatically.
i was naive at first to even thought that i could manage my time properly and balance my netball with my studies. However i was absolutely wrong.
I'm not a superwoman, i cant.
On a lighter note, thanks shiyu for cheering me up! :D
Hoping against hope that i could get a 10 out of 25 for my lit test. Don't wish for more just 10 and i would be more than happy enough.

Albert Schweitzer:
Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful.

Do i lactually love and enjoy what i'm doing?
Will i be successful?